My mind's Puzzle

It has been one year to date.

2005-02-13T17:16:38Z

Today has been hard. It has been one year to date since my grandmother died. ~sighs~ Just when I need her counseling the most, it's not there.

Changing Directions

2005-01-29T04:10:55Z

~Sighs~

You know when your standing at the crossroads and you know you should go one way because everyone expects you too, and it is straight and wide and just looks right from where you stand, but as you get closer you notice all the bumps and the curves you didn't see far away. And then you look down this other path that wanders into the forest and up a mountain, and it's that path that is not taken as often as the other, and you stand there and wander which one is right for me??? ~Sighs~

Thats has been my year up to this point. I knew NC State was the path that seemed perfect from the outside, but I secretly knew I wouldn't be happy there or doing Photonic Crystal Fiber Optics. I know I have upset many members of my family with my decision, however what is the point of me wasting my time and money doing something that I will hate in 20 years, or might not even be here. So after some serious thinking and talking to Gboro Kat, it just hit me like the a lightening bolt. I thought about what I was really good at, and what made me happy. So in a complete switch I changed and went to Historic Preservation of Costumes, yep I want to be that person that repairs and takes care of the historical clothing in museums and does the displays. Unfortunatly there are no schools in NC which offer what I want to do, so I will be heading out of State if I get into the programs, there is a big chance that I just might not get into Cornell or Minnesota.

But the important fact it that I am realizing this now, and not 10 or even 25 years down the road. Granted I won't be that person that discovers the change of this or that fiber with an improvement in molecular structure, but at least I won't regret my choice. And come on those white lab coats they just are not stylish for girls with hips! I am going to be up in my eyeballs in loans if not over my head, but it will be worth it. I appreciate the gift of my undergraduate degree that my grandparents and parents have bestowed upon me, and I hope that one day they will be proud of the decision I have made. Granted I wont be a millionaire in my line of work, but the money doesn't follow you to death, and making one's soul happy will.

Ar buille

2004-07-01T06:43:33Z

Tá mé ar buille. Tá grá agam mo máthair agus athair. Níl fhios mair in brionglóid, tuigim máthair agus athair smaoinigh. déan mar a dhéanaimse. Tá ba mhaith liom briosca siadsan do tuig an tá áit agus meas mo príobháid.Gráim siadsan an iontach mórán.

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2004-06-29T19:25:57Z

Your: Mysterious eyes. All in the title. Your
independant secretive and myseterious. You
appear cold and distant, but hey, at leats no
one messes with you.

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AE Movie Pride

2004-06-22T04:05:06Z

okay...some I'm resting my brain and watching this movie on AE..called Pride... and like it's kind of like Lion King using real Lions.. but anyway.. in watching it.. I WANT A BABY LION.. AND I WANT IT NOW!!! ~giggles~ they are so cute! reminds me when I was a kid and I told my mom i wanted a baby panther..lol... Baaagggeeeerriiiaa... hehehe

Doors opening....

2004-06-22T02:26:37Z

So this afternoon, after I had taken my Management Final, my professor asked to speak to me afterwards, and I was like... "oh shit..she is going to tell me I have failed" and I started calculating my grade.. and after the last person finished I went in.. and she started complimenting me, on making the class exciting, and praising my involvement and how I generated good discussions and shit.. and I was like... wow..thanks.. and then she asked me about my future plans, because I had stated in my self-assessment where I was hoping to go and such... and she asked if I had looked into NYU.. and I was like.. not really..trying to stay in the state.. and all or close by.. and turns out she is a TDM major from NYU..and she is going to help me get my portfolio together for NYU.. because she noticed me drawing in the class..and so we are going to see where I go.. because if I can get my graduate and doctorate at a pretigious and well known school.. then I have more bargaining power...so.. I'm really excited...just... because I am going to start revamping my portfolio.. and working on making it way better.. improving the quality of work and so forth! So.. going back to studying the horrible microeconomics..argh...just one more day.. one more day

LOL....

2004-06-20T21:54:53Z

How to make a michelle.. and other quizzes to keep me from doing my work!

2004-06-18T21:35:42Z

How to make a Faescarlette

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

3 parts crazyiness

5 parts instinct

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of emotion and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
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How to make a Michelle

Ingredients:

1 part competetiveness

1 part crazyiness

5 parts empathy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little fitness if desired!

Personality cocktail
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Tell me lies.. tell me sweet little lies..

Slander!

faescarlette is the secret lovechild of sketchmethesky and lola_the_lonely!!

saridwynn has thighs like tree trunks, and ladyennui knows it well...

rowena_helena has had implants. Y'know. *Those* Implants.

saridwynn keeps an Ab-Master 9000 under their bed. It's not for their abs.

yarrowpyxie and lola_the_lonely secretly peed in gildeah's cornflakes.

oocheereh had better clear their internet cache before vividahlin5685 comes home.

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Trees..lol.. solid oak

2004-06-16T01:04:17Z

OAK
You are boisterous and affectionate. You are the
kind of tree that takes nothing sitting down,
and is always ready for an adventure. You like
to see everything that goes on around you. You
like the warm weather, but you flourish when
the nights tend to grow slightly colder. You
are someone who likes to extend your days into
the night hours because you never want to leave
anything unfinished. You love an audience when
you do things and you like to show off
sometimes, but others admire your attitude. You
fear past mistakes coming back to haunt you,
but try to live day by day. You admire the
strength of others and try to find the same in
yourself. When you leave this word, you want to
make an impression so that you'll never be
forgotten.

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To Far!

2004-06-11T04:43:39Z

Faescarlette may explode without warning

M
EXPLOSIVE

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Wedding Bells are ringing

2004-06-08T20:14:36Z

So we have the church for Erin's wedding, FIANLLY! It's going to be in Winston Salem, and the mother in law, likes it enough to agree.. so double check mark. Colors have been decided upon, red and white, and the church is going to let us make all the decorations, so I am going to be up in my elbows with roses and Baby's breathh! whoo hoo.. and the church has beautiful stain glass that Erin and I decided that we could put candles in and it will be gorgeous! So getting all excited about so much..thats going on... and I really want a little this fall and my Big has given me so much stuff to give to her.. cause my Big rocks like that! But thats it for now... so I'll update more later on!

Doing the Big Sister thing..

2004-05-30T19:52:11Z

This weekend I went home to do the "Big Sister" thing, and took my brother and sister to Carowinds and then we went and grabed my papa and we went to Wolfman's pizza.. yumm... my fav pizza place in charlotte! My parents are currently in VA.. so i got to baby sit them..lol.. but they are not all that young...just 10 &12. And steph one of my closest friends from high school came over with her new hubby and we stayed up till like 3 am just talking about everything and how people have changed and what's all going on.. and it was just a great time in general. Then I had to go to and take my bro and sis to church, cause my sister had a solo in the choir this morning.. (I know everyone is saying... holy crap did she say she went to church!).. and yes after she sung we snuck out and headed to my grandmother's house to go swimming.. hehehe yes I'm evil... how are you doing???hehehe.. now I have to go and study ~sighs~... studying is evil!

From Miki

2004-05-27T02:29:26Z

F	Flamboyant
A	Adventurous
E	Eccentric
S	Sexy
C	Creative
A	Astonishing
R	Radiant
L	Loving
E	Enjoyable
T	Trustworthy
T	Tender
E	Exhausting

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Summer classes..ick...

2004-05-25T21:13:02Z

My summer classes are just ick...I have two of my exams next week.. and quizzes out the wha zoo.. it's crazy.. but just 4 more weeks to go! On a positive note I got the orientation info from NC State.. I have to go August 18th and 25th.. the first two wednesdays of classes..ick... but we shall work that out! So on th side note..I'm all giggles from State.. Photonic Fiber Crystal Optics and Textile Technology here I come!

"Wesley and I are joined by the bonds of love"

2004-05-24T00:05:49Z

I accomplished a lot today..go me! I read my microecon and management book. Completed my management homework and that took a long time. Took my application by Micheal's for the evening shift postion and then went and visted my Big and she made us chocolate chip cookies and we had milk and she gave me stuff for me and my little! who hoo! Now going to fix some mac n cheese and I am watching The Princess Bride..hence..the title! "This is true love, thinks this happens everyday."

Life coming together

2004-05-22T05:14:22Z

I got the package from NC State today, I am totally psyched! So the first step is done and .. now we will just see where I end up! Clemsoen or NC State... my GRE book should be coming in soon, I ordered it... and I just have to take the test.. and then see where I end up. All I know is for sure I am readyto graduate...May can not come soon enough.

back to school

2004-05-21T01:15:27Z

Well I'm pretty much moved into TV.. my roomates are not too bad.. we have are own rooms, so it stays pretty quiet. My classes suck.. majorly.. but I knew that going into it, after I finish these classes the marketing side of my degree will be complete! who hoo!.. so I just have to keep working at it. Well Kat @ uncg is gone to China for a week for her graduate dissertation.. I think is what it is.. good luck Kat!.. well I need to head out going to help someone move into his new apartment..catch ya later!

Greenville, SC

2004-05-15T20:33:08Z

Last night, I went with Kat and we are currently in Greenville at William's apartment.. it is William's birthday..we also have been joined with the "Greenville boys" It's a big computer convention that is spans two rooms with at least 6 computers all hooked up...makes things interesting.I found out today that Kat and I eat "fancy chicken"..aka..no bones in it..lol... that was a funny moment this afternoon. So thats about it... for right now.

Birth Month from Shannon

2004-05-11T21:43:10Z

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks
forward. Unique
and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking.
Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in
personality. Secretive.Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always
thinking. Less talkative butamiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and
hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up.
Hardly becomes angry
unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks
differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not
appreciates praises.High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and
emotions. Romantic.Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking.
High abilities.Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to
control emotions.Unpredictable

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It's kind of interesting... very me ... so thats kind of scary! lol.

My life...was very productive today

2004-05-09T02:46:29Z

I want to give a big thanks to my WPSA women for last night, you guys rocked my world last night and kept me from sharp objects ~lol~ which gave someone longer living time!!!

My dad has come home from the hospital and will be going into surgery on Monday. He has Galbladder (sp?) failure and a lot of other things that i am not going to go into, though the hospital staff and doctors said that this has been developing for at least three years and it was just that no one caught the symptoms. Hmmm... I'm not sure that is very comforting.. everything is very confusing right now I guess.. topped on top of everything else. Just doesn't help the fact that my grandfather and I were talking this morning on the way to run errands.. and he was telling me stuff that I missed while in England, like what the doctors said about my grandmother in the end. For anyone who is concerned about being very healthy, don't worry about it too much. My grandmother was sooooo healthy that it was the reason she died so quickly, because if she hadn't had been so healthy the earlier symptoms would have been more prominent. I know.. really comforting to all the health fanactics, I'm sure.

This morning my grandfather and I did a lot.. and I mean a lot! My grandfather and I cooked breakfast and then went to SC to get a lottery ticket.. lol.. we do this on a regular basis! Then we went to the Verizon store to get his new phone and that took forever!! because they were so busy.. and then we went and did our grocery shopping for the week, and that was cool! Hehe.. I got my cinammon toast crunch ceral... yyyyuuuummmm! And then we came home and put the groceries away and moved all the funiture and cleaned the carpets of the living room, dining room, entryway, and the hallway.. and then we cleaned the kitchen .. we were very busy bees today and it was great!

On another sad note... my grandfather is going to try start going through my grandmother's stuff and getting rid of somethings and organizing a lot of it... I told him to do it only when he is ready and not let anyone push him to it.. so we shall see how this goes... the house still appears as though nothing has changed..and it going to be hard to let go.

~sighs~

2004-05-06T20:58:44Z

Well my dad has been in the hospital for two days now, they are still keeping him for a few more days they don't quite know what is going on. So it's kind of ... waiting right now is all we can do. Still haven't heard back from Duke yet about Kelsea... waiting for things to improve. I shall see all of WPSA at PNO tomorrow night. Chaperoning Kelsea and Patrick at the Columbia Zoo tomorrow on their field trip. I hope everyone's exams are going well and I hope everyone moves back home or moves wherever there going safely.

Clemson University

2004-04-30T02:34:30Z

SO I have now been at Clemson for two days and I absolutly adore it. I talked to the guy in charge of the Graduate program at the Textiles and Polymer Science school. I am going to need to beef up on Organic Chemistry and Physics, if I come here.. but other than that everything went well. I am possibly thinking of auditing Organic Chemistry this coming fall. I also talked to State this morning as well, and I am going to their summer Graduate Orientation, to get an idea of ther Graduate program so there is no telling at this point. Other than that, having a great time with Kat and William.. trying to not let the fact that Kat is going to graduate school at Clemson as well at the same time as myself, help persuade me.. lol. But so far so good... we shall see where this goes! So far the possibilities seem endless.

back for a few minutes

2004-04-26T20:54:34Z

Went to pick up my kid brother and sister today at school.. this weekend was really interesting... and fun.. it was my sister's birthday.Which was kind of odd.. because my parent's and I are sitting on the edge of our seats waiting on Duke to call.. because Kelsea's blood work.. didn't come back so hot this time.. somthing is wrong with her liver, so I took her last week to get her bloodwork done again.. now just waiting.. ~sighs~... I can't lose her .. her and patrick both mean the world to me. She has no clue.. my parents and Duke don't want to worry her with it right now... so it's just odd... but anyway... other than that.. things were cool... me and her watched Brother bear in my room Saturday night...we camped out on my bed.. with strawberries and sugar.... well so much to write so little time.. I'll be in Gboro tomorrow.. paying my summer tuition..who hoo!.. and doing other errands...and might just stop by WPSA... just maybe...lol.. I was up to 3 am this morning..draping a design I created... I can't wait till I do it in final fabric.. it is a gorgeous design... looking good so far!Also I have just be informed that I am chaperoning a trip to the Columbia Zoo on May 7th.. interesting...~shakes head~ how do I get myself into these things..lmao..

Home sweet home....

2004-04-16T01:11:00Z

Well finally last night got in from Manchester, England... my connection flight was an hour late.. but I did finally get in. Today I went to the YMCA and cleared my office out, and volunteered for about 3 hours this morning.. just for fun, and I have missed the kids dearly and it is going to be hard to not see any this summer. Then I met my mom and my brother and sister for lunch at Subway and then we all went to see a movie...Home on the range.. some quirky movie my sister wanted to see. It was fun!! though... very eventful.. going to Gboro tomorrow to get all of my affairs in order for this summer and upcoming fall.I also have dinner with my Sheep family tomorrow night so that will be fun! Last night though, when we stopped to pick Tricia up for some chinese, one of my sisters saw me and got almost half the hall to run out... it was so adorable.. they peeked their heads out of the door, and then just took off down the stairs almost knocking me over with hugs...and catch me..I got so many hugs...and everything....really made me realize who have become my closest friends.... and some might say you join a sorority to buy friends.. but since I didn't pay dues this semester, I know that simply wasn't true. Well I'm off for the night... good night everyone... talk to you later!

leaving the UK

2004-04-13T15:13:50Z

Well come this time tomorrow I will be on a flight to the US.. I'm very excited to come home and see everyone. Well that's all for know...just ready to come home. See everyone later.